"The world is not a wish-granting factory." - John Green
The quote above is from a book I recently finished reading entitled, "The Fault In Our Stars" by John Green. Last month it was made into a movie but I prefer books over movies any day. I could tell you alllll about the book and how emotionally impacted I was by the characters, but that will be saved for another post at another time. Right now, I'm hitting you with an update of my nonsensical life & hoping you'll still be around when the ride is over.
Its amazing how college still plays a huge role in my summer; although, I am not presently attending this semester. I am currently stuck between two majors anyhow. I have no idea which one my heart belongs to. I guess I could write a compare and contrast list along with the pros and cons but what much could that do if I want both but can only afford to do one? How the US handles the tuition of college and the payment of loans is stupid. In my opinion, if a student graduates college in a designated time period for that degree (ie. 2 years for an Associate's degree), his or her loans should be forgiven because he or she completed the program or degree within the designated time period. I think its highly unfair that many people graduate college with their dream job but are in debt due to loans just to pay for schooling. It sucks. -sigh- I begin clinicals for medical assisting in September but I want to pursue Dental Hygiene. The issue is dental hygiene clinicals only take 25 students each fall semester. If I could afford it, I could complete my Associate's degree in Medical Assisting and I could still take on Dental Hygiene before I graduate.The issue is money. The issue is always money. But after speaking with a Dental Hygiene graduate about the course workload, I grew weary of that decision also. She informed me that lectures were harder than clinicals but I believe I am a pretty good listener and note-taker so lectures wouldn't be so hard. Moreover, what is hard for her may not be as hard for me. I guess its simply just preference. The reason I want to pursue Dental Hygiene is because most Dental Hygienists work part-time and still receive benefits and high pay from their employers. If I worked part-time, it would pay off for currently having two part-time jobs at the moment. Besides, working ONE part-time job as a Dental Hygienist would mean I could have more time to do things I missed out on at 18-20 because I had to work 2-3 jobs to get the things I wanted. I doubt working full-time as a Medical Assistant would be that much more rewarding. The reason I chose the Medical Assistant major was because I like doing paperwork and handling scheduling. I fell in love with Electronic Health Records (EHRS). I think its fun. But it may not make me financially stable. Then again, after speaking with a woman who has thousands because she is cheap, there's a possibility I could be financially stable. Yeah, yeah I know I shouldn't do it for the money. I'm not. I'm doing it based off interests... but I refuse to go back to living how I was. Nope. Being an adult SUCKS.
Work is dreadful yet exciting. I'll start with the dreadful part lol. Before June 28th, I was running off of barely any sleep. I was sleep deprived. I was usually more tired than the day before. I finally got to sleep in on the morning of Monday, June 30th. It was so bad I was hallucinating from barely any sleep. At that one time, I had just two jobs (in which I hated one) just to save up enough money to buy a car. Preferably the Kia Rio I found on Craigslist. I'm so tired of the public bus that I am ready to just start walking (or biking!) I won't lie, I have even considered taking a break from college to save money for a car. I am tired of the regular ol' get up and leave two hours before you need to be somewhere. That is sooo tiring. Plus, there isn't a guarantee that I would get to where I need to be in time. That drives me nuts. I'm so oh tired of it -pouts- On the other hand, I had an interview at a store called Journeys on Monday during the afternoon (after 2). To my surprise there were 5 different hiring managers I was speaking with along with a group of other possible candidates. I did my best and tried to answer each question professionally, happily and first if possible. I believe I did great because not even 24 hours later, I was called and offered a part-time position, starting Monday. YAY ME! I finally got myself a job in the mall... but it may not even be permanent. So I don't know.
Dating isn't my priority. Well, not at this time anyway. I want love but I do not want it right now. I want to reach a few goals prior to jumping into a relationship. I must say I did run into a former crush. But you can read about that here. No dating has caused guys to pursue me like crazy. I do not know what it is that suddenly attracts these guys to me but I am not losing focus on my goal(s). So they'll just have to wait. It'll take someone pretty special to change my mind right now. & I'm sure he doesn't live close to even try.
My health is pretty crappy right now. I don't sleep much and I eat maybe 2x per day. My food habits are worse. I have gotten really used eating candy for lunch and breakfast and falling asleep on the floor as soon as I get home from work. I can say that I did burn a "few" calories on June 20th at the gym with my friend Nay. Those two hours were very excruciating. I came home and literally collapsed on the floor while Nay was refreshed and ready for bed. WOMP. I couldn't walk without feeling like my knees would give out for two days. It hurt like hell. But on the plus side, I survived two hours of gym training. Give me my props!! *fist pumps the air*
Friends are my support system. Well, a little of it. Some encourage me to do better while others are just there. I have been evaluating a lot of my friendships with those I speak to one a regular. Although, they mean well, it may be time to let go! Some good (bad) things must come to an end eventually.
On a brighter note, don't you wish the world was a wish-granting factory?
♥
Reisha