Lately a lot of things have been going side ways. Between my job, my home life, college and my relationships with others, my life has been one hell of a roller coaster in the matter of two weeks. Yet I haven't lost my faith that everything will get better for me and my situations. Lets start at the beginning...
I absolutely love my job. My only issue is standing outside in the heat. I'm definitely not a summer/heat type of girl. The feeling the heat gives me irritates my soul. Maybe I'm just spoiled by the A/C I live and breathe in but I can't deal with being dizzy while at work. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to pass out. Worse of all, right now my county is in a heat advisory and tomorrow is supposed to be hotter. I WORK TOMORROW. Woe is me. I don't even know if I'll be sent home early due to the heat. I really don't want to miss out on the money but there is nothing I can really do.
Home life has been pretty crazy. My mom and her nicotine addiction hasn't gotten any better. Along with that, we have to pay $527 in rent because I'm working a part-time job. Bogus, right? I paid $127 in rent this month and was left fucking broke. I know what people mean when they say you work to be broke. My check was gorgeous until I had to give half of it over to my landlord to live in a place I hate. I swear I think the rent we pay is used to cover everyone else's $25 rent. I can't wait to move out of the hood. My landlord is a bitch anyway. She half-asses her job and tells everyone's personal business. January 2014 can't come fast enough. I'm already buying stuff to put in my new room.
Recently, I decided I wanted to attend school after I graduate for a 3rd major. I haven't earned my first or second one yet, but I'm intrigued. My friend Nay had a book in her car about majors at a school called Mercy where she will be attending. I looked it over and discovered Ophthalmic Technology is something I'd be interested in. Actually its just like Medical Assisting except it deals with the eyes and I would be an assistant to an eye doctor. I'd still have the same responsibilities as a Medical Assistant except I'd make a little bit more money per year and I'd be in school for a lesser amount of time. I wish I would have discovered this major before I graduated high school. Shoot, maybe my new school advisor can help me with double majoring. That way I take classes for Medical Assisting and English at the same time. This way I don't have to completely wait 2 years in between majors. I learned that Ophthalmic Technicians only need a certificate and at Mercy, obtaining a certificate will only take 3-4 semesters, including a summer semester. I love school so I don't see much of an issue with this plan besides money. But I'll do anything to be sure I'll never have to struggle again and that my future family will be secure. I want to give back to my family. I don't see my future being at a minimum wage job anymore.
My relationships are crazy. My female friends are awesome. I don't have any issues with any of them currently. As for my guy friends, I'm curious what kind of bug bit them. It seems as though most of them have a crush on me. I cant begin to count how many guys confessed their feelings for me on Tuesday. It was weird. Even my best friend came out his nutshell and said he could see me as his next girlfriend. I had to reread that message to be sure I had read it correctly. My ex (technically) is trying to slowly move his way back into my life by liking my Instagram photos and anonymously leaving me messages on Ask.fm. I had a weak moment and almost texted him. Can't do that. The guys who made my senior year of high school a living hell are now trying to pursue me and express their interest. Uh, what? I can't grasp that concept. Having a lot of guys interested in you sucks. I've never had to deal with this before. I'm not sure what just made me noticeable this summer but it needs to go far the fuck away. I'm not liking all the attention I'm getting. Heck, I'm not even interested in a relationship right now.
Well that's my life in a nutshell. Can you believe all of this has happened to me in a little over 2 weeks? No? Me either lol. My blog friend Kendel gave me the idea to begin logging my monthly goals here on my blog. I may do that so I can remember them better. Please remember life gets better though.
