My family has turned against me because of the actions and words of someone I thought loved me. They believe I can control this person's actions and its all my fault so they don't want anything more to do with me. Nobody asked me. Nobody cared to say, "Reisha, how do you feel?" I wasn't even hit with a fair warning. No one said, "I'm ignoring your phone calls because I want nothing more to do with you and your dramatic parent." If they had asked, I would have told them that I don't want anything to do with her as much as they don't. But what can I do? I can't move out. I have nowhere to go. Without family to turn to, all I really have now is friends... & I can only depend on them for so much so really all I have is myself.
& one person can only do so much by their self.
So what's next?
Struggle in silence, act out for help or suicide and end it all?
I choose to struggle in silence. From every wound, there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, "I survived" (Craig Scott). & I need that. Because no matter how hard life gets, I can't give up. Someone is secretly watching my life and my struggles. Inspired and empowered to overcome their own obstacles because they watched me endure all my pain and become stronger. I have a purpose on this Earth. I'm not sure of it yet but I have a purpose. For now, crying will have to fill the void of missing my favorite aunts and cousins.