Three sets of emotions.
Two graduations.
One night.
Horrible. That's exactly how this evening played out. First, my friend Tia kidnapped me for the entire day and got me home around 3, knowing I needed to be home to do my hair before 4. I rushed my hair which fell to pieces at the graduation I was attending. I was late to both graduations by at least 30 minutes. Next, My supposed "best friend" embarrassed the shit out of me in front of his family. I can't believe what happened was real. I felt like I was in a bad dream. I stood there in shock as he kissed and held hands with this girl... This girl he's never told me about. All along I swore we had feelings for each other but I guess not. If I had known she was coming I would have stayed my ass at home. I already had another graduation to attend. I was so pissed. So hurt that he never told me. I felt stupid as fuck. I still feel stupid. I was so closed to crying but I kept my composure...
At graduation #2, my composure was shattered into itty bitty pieces. My half brother posted on Facebook that he was at the same graduation as me. I immediately got pissed again. This time I couldn't fight the tears. A year ago today was my graduation from high school. He told me he had to work and he wasn't able to make it. He didn't even congratulate me on my success. I was so hurt tonight that tears of anger began to stream down my face as I fanned myself with a commencement booklet to dry the tears. All I've ever wanted was the attention my half brother has given to his half brothers (and sisters) to me. It isn't right how he doesn't give a shit about me. That's what hurts me the most. I hate being an only child. All my life I have tried so hard to be close to this man and he could give a fuck less about me. You made time for your brother's graduation ceremony, why couldn't you make time for mine? Needless to say, I wipped my tears and fanned myself until my friend's name was called.
